Lore of Proserpine — BECKWITH'S CASE -Part 2

"I kept Thumbeline in the kennel for the whole winter.

She seemed happy enough there with the dogs, and, of course, she had had Florrie, too, though I did not find that out until the spring.

I don't doubt, now, that if I had kept her in there altogether she would have been perfectly contented.

"The first time I saw Florrie with her I was amazed.

It was a Sunday morning.

There was our four-year-old child standing at the wire, pressing herself against it, and Thumbeline close to her.

Their faces almost touched; their fingers were interlaced; I am certain that they were speaking to each other in their own fashion, by flashes, without words.

I watched them for a bit; I saw Bran come and sit up on his haunches and join in.

He looked from one to another, and all about;

and then he saw me.

"Now that is how I know that they were all three in communication;

because, the very next moment, Florrie turned round and ran to me, and said in her pretty baby-talk, 'Talking to Bran.

Florrie talking to Bran.'

If this was wilful deceit it was most accomplished.

It could not have been better done.

'And who else were you talking to, Florrie?'

I said.

She fixed her round blue eyes upon me, as if in wonder, then looked away and said shortly, 'No one else.'

And I could not get her to confess or admit then or at any time afterward that she had any cognisance at all of the fairy in Bran's kennel, although their communications were daily, and often lasted for hours at a time.

I don't know that it makes things any better, but I have thought sometimes that the child believed me to be as insensible to Thumbeline as her mother was.

She can only have believed it at first, of course, but that may have prompted her to a concealment which she did not afterwards care to confess to.

"Be this as it may, Florrie, in fact, behaved with Thumbeline exactly as the two dogs did.

She made no attempt to catch her at her circlings and wheelings about the kennel, nor to follow her wonderful dances, nor (in her presence) to imitate them.

But she was (like the dogs) aware of nobody else when under the spell of Thumbeline's personality;

and when she had got to know her she seemed to care for nobody else at all.

I ought, no doubt, to have foreseen that and guarded against it.

"Thumbeline was extremely attractive.

I never saw such eyes as hers, such mysterious fascination.

She was nearly always good-tempered, nearly always happy; but sometimes she had fits of temper and kept herself to herself.

Nothing then would get her out of the kennel, where she would lie curled up like an animal with her knees to her chin and one arm thrown over her face.

Bran was always wretched at these times, and did all he knew to coax her out.

He ceased to care for me or my wife after she came to us, and instead of being wild at the prospect of his Saturday and Sunday runs, it was hard to get him along.

I had to take him on a lead until we had turned to go home;

then he would set off by himself, in spite of hallooing and scolding, at a long steady gallop and one would find him waiting crouched at the gate of his run, and Thumbeline on the ground inside it, with her legs crossed like a tailor, mocking and teasing him with her wonderful shining eyes.

Only once or twice did I see her worse than sick or sorry; then she was transported with rage and another person altogether.

She never touched me--and why or how I had offended her I have no notion[5]--but she buzzed and hovered about me like an angry bee.

She appeared to have wings, which hummed in their furious movement; she was red in the face, her eyes burned; she grinned at me and ground her little teeth together.

A curious shrill noise came from her, like the screaming of a gnat or hoverfly; but no words, never any words.

Bran showed me his teeth too, and would not look at me.

It was very odd.

[Footnote 5: "I have sometimes thought," he adds in a note, "that it may have been jealousy.

My wife had been with me in the garden and had stuck a daffodil in my coat."

] "When I looked in, on my return home, she was as merry as usual, and as affectionate.

I think she had no memory.

"I am trying to give all the particulars I was able to gather from observation.

In some things she was difficult, in others very easy to teach.

For instance, I got her to learn in no time that she ought to wear her clothes, such as they were, when I was with her.

She certainly preferred to go without them, especially in the sunshine;

but by leaving her the moment she slipped her frock off I soon made her understand that if she wanted me she must behave herself according to my notions of behaviour.

She got that fixed in her little head, but even so she used to do her best to hoodwink me.

She would slip out one shoulder when she thought I wasn't looking, and before I knew where I was half of her would be gleaming in the sun like satin.

Directly I noticed it I used to frown, and then she would pretend to be ashamed of herself, hang her head, and wriggle her frock up to its place again.

However, I never could teach her to keep her skirts about her knees.

She was as innocent as a baby about that sort of thing.

"I taught her some English words, and a sentence or two.

That was toward the end of her confinement to the kennel, about March.

I used to touch parts of her, or of myself, or Bran, and peg away at the names of them.

Mouth, eyes, ears, hands, chest, tail, back, front: she learned all those and more.

Eat, drink, laugh, cry, love, kiss, those also.

As for kissing (apart from the word) she proved herself to be an expert.

She kissed me, Florrie, Bran, Strap indifferently, one as soon as another, and any rather than none, and all four for choice.

"I learned some things myself, more than a thing or two.

I don't mind owning that one thing was to value my wife's steady and tried affection far above the wild love of this unbalanced, unearthly little creature, who seemed to be like nothing so much as a woman with the conscience left out.

The conscience, we believe, is the still small voice of the Deity crying to us in the dark recesses of the body;

pointing out the path of duty; teaching respect for the opinion of the world, for tradition, decency and order.

It is thanks to conscience that a man is true and a woman modest.

Not that Thumbeline could be called immodest, unless a baby can be so described, or an animal.

But could I be called 'true'?

I greatly fear that I could not--in fact, I know it too well.

I meant no harm; I was greatly interested; and there was always before me the real difficulty of making Mary understand that something was in the kennel which she couldn't see.

It would have led to great complications, even if I had persuaded her of the fact.

No doubt she would have insisted on my getting rid of Thumbeline--but how on earth could I have done that if Thumbeline had not chosen to go?

But for all that I know very well that I ought to have told her, cost what it might.

If I had done it I should have spared myself lifelong regret, and should only have gone without a few weeks of extraordinary interest which I now see clearly could not have been good for me, as not being founded upon any revealed Christian principle, and most certainly were not worth the price I had to pay for them.

"I learned one more curious fact which I must not forget.

Nothing would induce Thumbeline to touch or pass over anything made of zinc.

[6] I don't know the reason of it; but gardeners will tell you that the way to keep a plant from slugs is to put a zinc collar round it.

It is due to that I was able to keep her in Bran's run without difficulty.

To have got out she would have had to pass zinc.

The wire was all galvanised.

[Footnote 6: This is a curious thing, unsupported by any other evidence known to me.

I asked Despoina about it, but she would not, or she did not, answer.

She appeared not to understand what zinc was, and I had none handy.

] "She showed her dislike of it in numerous ways: one was her care to avoid touching the sides or top of the enclosure when she was at her gambols.

At such times, when she was at her wildest, she was all over the place, skipping high like a lamb, twisting like a leveret, wheeling round and round in circles like a young dog, or skimming, like a swallow on the wing, above ground.

But she never made a mistake; she turned in a moment or flung herself backward if there was the least risk of contact.

When Florrie used to converse with her from outside, in that curious silent way the two had, it would always be the child that put its hands through the wire, never Thumbeline.

I

once tried to put her against the roof when I was playing with her.

She screamed like a shot hare and would not come out of the kennel all day.

There was no doubt at all about her feelings for zinc.

All other metals seemed indifferent to her.

"With the advent of spring weather Thumbeline became not only more beautiful, but wilder, and exceedingly restless.

She now coaxed me to let her out, and against my judgment I did it; she had to be carried over the entry; for when I had set the gate wide open and pointed her the way into the garden she squatted down in her usual attitude of attention, with her legs crossed, and watched me, waiting.

I wanted to see how she would get through the hateful wire, so went away and hid myself, leaving her alone with Bran.

I saw her creep to the entry and peer at the wire.

What followed was curious.

Bran came up wagging his tail and stood close to her, his side against her head; he looked down, inviting her to go out with him.

Long looks passed between them, and then Bran stooped his head, she put her arms around his neck, twined her feet about his foreleg, and was carried out.

Then she became a mad thing, now bird, now moth; high and low, round and round, flashing about the place for all the world like a humming-bird moth, perfectly beautiful in her motions (whose ease always surprised me), and equally so in her colouring of soft grey and dusky-rose flesh.

Bran grew a puppy again and whipped about after her in great circles round the meadow.

But though he was famous at coursing, and has killed his hares single-handed, he was never once near Thumbeline.

It was a wonderful sight and made me late for business.

"By degrees she got to be very bold, and taught me boldness too, and (I am ashamed to say) greater degrees of deceit.

She came freely into the house and played with Florrie up and down stairs; she got on my knee at meal-times, or evenings when my wife and I were together.

Fine tricks she played me, I must own.

She spilled my tea for me, broke cups and saucers, scattered my Patience cards, caught poor Mary's knitting wool and rolled it about the room.

The cunning little creature knew that I dared not scold her or make any kind of fuss.

She used to beseech me for forgiveness occasionally when I looked very glum, and would touch my cheek to make me look at her imploring eyes, and keep me looking at her till I smiled.

Then she would put her arms round my neck and pull herself up to my level and kiss me, and then nestle down in my arms and pretend to sleep.

By-and-by, when my attention was called off her, she would pinch me, or tweak my necktie, and make me look again at her wicked eye peeping out from under my arm.

I had to kiss her again, of course, and at last she might go to sleep in earnest.

She seemed able to sleep at any hour or in any place, just like an animal.

"I had some difficulty in arranging for the night when once she had made herself free of the house.

She saw no reason whatever for our being separated; but I circumvented her by nailing a strip of zinc all round the door; and I put one round Florrie's too.

I pretended to my wife that it was to keep out draughts.

Thumbeline was furious when she found out how she had been tricked.

I think she never quite forgave me for it.

Where she hid herself at night I am not sure.

I think on the sitting-room sofa; but on mild mornings I used to find her out-doors, playing round Bran's kennel.

"Strap, our fox-terrier, picked up some rat poison towards the end of April and died in the night.

Thumbeline's way of taking that was very curious.

It shocked me a good deal.

She had never been so friendly with him as with Bran, though certainly more at ease in his company than in mine.

The night before he died I remember that she and Bran and he had been having high games in the meadow, which had ended by their all lying down together in a heap, Thumbeline's head on Bran's flank, and her legs between his.

Her arm had been round Strap's neck in a most loving way.

They made quite a picture for a Royal Academician; 'Tired of Play,' or 'The End of a Romp,' I can fancy he would call it.

Next morning I found poor old Strap stiff and staring, and Thumbeline and Bran at their games just the same.

She actually jumped over him and all about him as if he had been a lump of earth or a stone.

Just some such thing he was to her; she did not seem able to realise that there was the cold body of her friend.

Bran just sniffed him over and left him, but Thumbeline showed no consciousness that he was there at all.

I wondered, was this heartlessness or obliquity?

But I have never found the answer to my question.

[7] [Footnote 7: I have observed this frequently for myself, and can answer Beckwith's question for him.

I would refer the reader in the first place to my early experience of the boy (to call him so) with the rabbit in the wood.

There was an act of shocking cruelty, done idly, almost unconsciously.

I was not shocked at all, child as I was, and quickly moved to pity and terror, because I knew that the creature was not to be judged by our standards.

From this and other things of the sort which I have observed, and from this tale of Beckwith's, I judge, that, to the fairy kind, directly life ceases to be lived at the full, the object, be it fairy, or animal, or vegetable, is not perceived by the other to exist.

Thus, if a fairy should die, the others would not know that its accidents were there; if a rabbit (as in the case cited) should be caught it would therefore cease to be rabbit.

We ourselves have very much the same habit of regard toward plant life.

Our attitude to a tree or a growing plant ceases the moment that plant is out of the ground.

It is then, as we say, _dead_--that is, it ceases to be a plant.

So also we never scruple to pluck the flowers, or the whole flower-scape from a plant, to put it in our buttonhole or in the bosom of our friend, and thereafter to cease our interest in the plant as such.

It now becomes a memory, a _gage d'amour_, a token or a sudden glory--what you will.

This is the habit of mankind; but I know of rare ones, both men and women, who never allow dead flowers to be thrown into the draught, but always give them decent burial, either cremation or earth to earth.

I find that admirable, yet don't condemn their neighbours, nor consider fairies cruel who torture the living and disregard the maimed or the dead.

] "Now I come to the tragical part of my story, and wish with all my heart that I could leave it out.

But beyond the full confession I have made to my wife, the County Police and the newspapers, I feel that I should not shrink from any admission that may be called for of how much I have been to blame.

In May, on the 13th of May, Thumbeline, Bran, and our only child, Florrie, disappeared.

"It was a day, I remember well, of wonderful beauty.

I had left them all three together in the water meadow, little thinking of what was in store for us before many hours.

Thumbeline had been crowning Florrie with a wreath of flowers.

She had gathered cuckoo-pint and marsh marigolds and woven them together, far more deftly than any of us could have done, into a chaplet.

I remember the curious winding, wandering air she had been singing (without any words, as usual) over her business, and how she touched each flower first with her lips, and then brushed it lightly across her bosom before she wove it in.

She had kept her eyes on me as she did it, looking up from under her brows, as if to see whether I knew what she was about.

"I don't doubt now but that she was bewitching Florrie by this curious performance, which every flower had to undergo separately; but, fool that I was, I thought nothing of it at the time, and bicycled off to Salisbury leaving them there.

"At noon my poor wife came to me at the Bank distracted with anxiety and fatigue.

She had run most of the way, she gave me to understand.

Her news was that Florrie and Bran could not be found anywhere.

She said that she had gone to the gate of the meadow to call the child in, and not seeing her, or getting any answer, she had gone down to the river at the bottom.

Here she had found a few picked wild flowers, but no other traces.

There were no footprints in the mud, either of child or dog.

Having spent the morning with some of the neighbours in a fruitless search, she had now come to me.

"My heart was like lead, and shame prevented me from telling her the truth as I was sure it must be.

But my own conviction of it clogged all my efforts.

Of what avail could it be to inform the police or organise search-parties, knowing what I knew only too well?

However, I did put Gulliver in communication with the head-office in Sarum, and everything possible was done.

We explored a circuit of six miles about Wishford; every fold of the hills, every spinney, every hedgerow was thoroughly examined.

But that first night of grief had broken down my shame: I told my wife the whole truth in the presence of Reverend Richard Walsh, the Congregational minister, and in spite of her absolute incredulity, and, I may add, scorn, next morning I repeated it to Chief Inspector Notcutt of Salisbury.

Particulars got into the local papers by the following Saturday; and next I had to face the ordeal of the _Daily Chronicle_, _Daily News_, _Daily Graphic_, _Star_, and other London journals.

Most of these newspapers sent representatives to lodge in the village, many of them with photographic cameras.

All this hateful notoriety I had brought upon myself, and did my best to bear like the humble, contrite Christian which I hope I may say I have become.

We found no trace of our dear one, and never have to this day.

Bran, too, had completely vanished.

I

have not cared to keep a dog since.

"Whether my dear wife ever believed my account I cannot be sure.

She has never reproached me for wicked thoughtlessness, that's certain.

Mr. Walsh, our respected pastor, who has been so kind as to read this paper, told me more than once that he could hardly doubt it.

The Salisbury police made no comments upon it one way or another.

My colleagues at the Bank, out of respect for my grief and sincere repentance, treated me with a forbearance for which I can never be too grateful.

I need not add that every word of this is absolutely true.

I

made notes of the most remarkable characteristics of the being I called Thumbeline _at the time of remarking them_, and those notes are still in my possession."

* * * * * Here, with the exception of a few general reflections which are of little value, Mr. Beckwith's paper ends.

It was read, I ought to say, by the Rev. Richard Walsh at the meeting of the South Wilts Folk-lore Society and Field Club held at Amesbury in June 1892, and is to be found in the published transactions of that body (Vol. IV.

New Series, pp. 305 _seq.

_).