Glimpses of Bengal — Bolpur
BOLPUR,
_19th October 1894. _ We know people only in dotted outline, that is to say, with gaps in our knowledge which we have to fill in ourselves, as best we can.
Thus, even those we know well are largely made up of our imagination.
Sometimes the lines are so broken, with even the guiding dots missing, that a portion of the picture remains darkly confused and uncertain.
If, then, our best friends are only pieces of broken outline strung on a thread of imagination, do we really know anybody at all, or does anybody know us except in the same disjointed fashion?
But perhaps it is these very loopholes, allowing entrance to each other's imagination, which make for intimacy; otherwise each one, secure in his inviolate individuality, would have been unapproachable to all but the Dweller within.
Our own self, too, we know only in bits, and with these scraps of material we have to shape the hero of our life-story,--likewise with the help of our imagination.
Providence has, doubtless, deliberately omitted portions so that we may assist in our own creation.
BOLPUR,
_31st October 1894. _ The first of the north winds has begun to blow to-day, shiveringly.
It looks as if there had been a visitation of the tax-gatherer in the _Amlaki_ groves,--everything beside itself, sighing, trembling, withering.
The tired impassiveness of the noonday sunshine, with its monotonous cooing of doves in the dense shade of the mango-tops, seems to overcast the drowsy watches of the day with a pang, as of some impending parting.
The ticking of the clock on my table, and the pattering of the squirrels which scamper in and out of my room, are in harmony with all other midday sounds.
It amuses me to watch these soft, grey and black striped, furry squirrels, with their bushy tails, their twinkling bead-like eyes, their gentle yet busily practical demeanour.
Everything eatable has to be put away in the wire-gauze cupboard in the corner, safe from these greedy creatures.
So, sniffing with an irrepressible eagerness, they come nosing round and round the cupboard, trying to find some hole for entrance.
If any grain or crumb has been dropped outside they are sure to find it, and, taking it between their forepaws, nibble away with great industry, turning it over and over to adjust it to their mouths.
At the least movement of mine up go their tails over their backs and off they run, only to stop short half-way, sit up on their tails on the door-mat, scratching their ears with their hind-paws, and then come back.
Thus little sounds continue all day long--gnawing teeth, scampering feet, and the tinkling of the china on the shelves.
SHELIDAH,
_7th December 1894. _
