Wounded Name — Chapter 4: The Captive Hawk, part 2

(6) On June 9th, more than five weeks after he had been brought to the château, Aymar was at last allowed to leave his bed, and sat in an armchair looking, so Laurent privately thought, ten times as gaunt and hollow-eyed as he had done between the sheets.

Indeed his quite natural state of weakness was a considerable disappointment to L'Oiseleur as well as to his nurse, since at first his legs would not support him for an instant.

However, on the second day he managed to walk round the room between M. Perrelet and Laurent, and shortly afterwards was clad in a suit of clothes belonging to the absent owner of Arbelles, for every garment of his own, except his boots, had had to be destroyed.

Though this did not fit him, in cut and texture it was well enough, and to Laurent it was a great thing to see his charge clothed.

He cherished visions of taking him before long for a walk on the terrace.

But on the whole L'Oiseleur was even more depressed than he had been while in bed, and Laurent wondered whether this was due to the disappointment of finding himself so unexpectedly weak.

He had hoped that his friend was getting the better of these periods of gloom, and now the haunted look was more apparent than ever.

"I wish to goodness that he would tell me the whole story and have done with it!"

he thought, almost in despair, after a few days of this, as he went down one afternoon for his constitutional.

"He half promised that he would, some day; it would be so much better if he talked about it instead of eternally brooding over it.

Two heads might perhaps see a way out."

Personal matters apart, Laurent himself had really more cause for depression at the moment than La Rocheterie.

For only this morning had M.

Perrelet brought them the news of the death of the Marquis de la Rochejaquelein in a skirmish--a calamitous loss to the Vendean Royalists.

It had indeed greatly shocked the late Vendean aide-de-camp.

On the other hand, the good doctor reported a victory of Sol de Grisolles, the Breton general-in-chief, on June 10th, which had opened for him the way to the sea, and to the reception of much-needed arms from England.

But this had not cheered L'Oiseleur.

Rigault and another young officer were already strolling on the terrace when his guard deposited Laurent there.

The former hailed him; the latter he had met once or twice, and the three took a turn up and down together.

"Pleasant weather," remarked Rigault.

"I'm glad, Monsieur de Courtomer, that you get at least this taste of it.

He's a very thoughtful old boy, the Sieur Perrelet.

--By the way, I hear that Saint Sebastian is out of bed at last."

Laurent stopped dead and looked him in the face.

"I don't know to whom you are referring, Monsieur!"

he said sharply.

But the red which had mounted to his cheek showed that he had at any rate a very good idea.

"No offence!"

said Rigault lightly.

"The name is not of my originating."

"Though, parbleu, it is, from all accounts, strikingly appropriate," murmured the other officer.

"It is in strikingly bad taste!"

retorted Laurent, turning upon him.

And as the culprit did not appear penitent, but had a subdued grin on his face, he added, "I did not come out here to listen to offensive conversation," and began to move haughtily away.

But Rigault came after him.

"It is I who ought to apologize, Monsieur de Courtomer," he said hastily.

"I do apologize, sincerely.

It slipped out without my meaning it."

Laurent writhed.

Evidently the officers of the garrison were in the habit of referring to Aymar by this title; and it was, horribly, appropriate.

Therein lay its offensiveness.

The other officer made a half-laughing apology, too, and saluting, went off.

Laurent looked after him, frowning.

"I must say you are a staunch champion," came Rigault's voice in his ear.

"Please don't think I am insincere when I say that I admire you for it!

Really, I hope I should be the same in your place.

Saint Se---- La Rocheterie is your friend, and if a man does not believe his friend when he assures him that he is innocent, well .

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But Lieutenant Rigault's magnanimous attempt to take another's point of view fell disappointingly flat.

For Laurent, biting his lip, was now frowning at the gravel of the terrace.

It was an odd moment for the thought to strike him for the first time in all these weeks, that that was exactly what his friend had never done.

Aymar never had assured him, in so many words, that he was innocent.

He shook off the impression in a moment--for why should Aymar have told him a thing of which, as he knew, Laurent was already convinced?

And when he returned to their joint apartment he had forgotten it.

Aymar, lying back in his armchair by the window, doing nothing, exactly as he had left him, appeared so averse to conversation that Laurent gave up the attempt, and took up instead _The Vicar of Wakefield_, which he himself was rereading at odd moments, for the English lessons had soon been discontinued.

It had not taken Laurent long to find out that his pupil's interest in them was only simulated--probably for his sake.

The innocent and amiable volume now opened of itself at the beginning of Chapter xxii, and Laurent found himself reading these words in large type, "NONE BUT THE GUILTY CAN BE LONG AND COMPLETELY MISERABLE."

They were only one of Goldsmith's sententious chapter-headings, but they might have been the inscription on Belshazzar's palace wall.

Laurent was suddenly mesmerized, and remained staring at them.

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He did not ask whether what they stated was axiomatically true; it was only that it fitted in so diabolically with--well, with all the profound depression of the last few days, with the whole attitude, even, of that silent figure now leaning its head on its nerveless hand, not even looking out of the window at the allurements of June.

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And the page cast up at him further accusing scraps: "_grief seemed formed for continuing .

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anxiety had taken strong possession .

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nothing gave her ease .

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in company she dreaded contempt, in solitude she only found anxiety.

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_" --"Long and completely miserable .

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none but the guilty .

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Good God, what was he thinking!

Hot and cold by turns Laurent flung _The Vicar of Wakefield_ violently on his bed.

His action had at least the result of rousing Aymar, for it made him jump.

(7) Next day, when Laurent came back from the terrace, he walked into an empty room.

Aymar was not there.

One pang of wild dismay and, turning quickly, he inserted his foot into the closing door.

"Where is M. de la Rocheterie?"

he demanded fiercely of the sentry.

"A guard came and took him downstairs about half an hour ago," replied the man.

"I must shut this door, sir."

"Took him downstairs!"

ejaculated Laurent.

"_Downstairs!

_ In Heaven's name, why?"

"The Colonel is back, and wished to see him--some kind of a council, I think.

I shall get into trouble, sir, if you don't allow me----" "I have a good mind to go down after him," declared Laurent, the light of combat coming into his eyes.

"--No, all right," he added, as the empty-handed sentry thereupon made a grab for his musket.

And he turned away.

Guitton back--and sending for L'Oiseleur!

What could it mean?

The cipher business again?

No, that was all over.

Oh, damn that scoundrel, why did he come back--why did he not die of that ball in his leg?

And, as to making Aymar go downstairs in his present condition, when he had never done more than walk a little about this room--well, they would certainly have to carry him up again.

It would set him back for ages, and M. Perrelet was away for a couple of days, too.

Thus Laurent fumed.

But Aymar was not carried back, though when at last he came in he looked scarcely able to stand, and leant against the door for a moment with closed eyes, clutching the handle.

Laurent, thinking he was going to fall, hurried to him.

"Aymar----" he began, putting out an arm.

But Aymar brushed aside his proffered assistance with small courtesy, and, staggering past him to his own bed, sat down, gripping the edge of it with both hands.

Laurent took one glance at him and poured out brandy.

"Those stairs!"

he muttered furiously.

"Madness.

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Drink this, and lie down quickly."

But Aymar did not seem to see the glass he held out.

He was staring in front of him with eyes like live coals, his breath coming very fast;

and in a moment Laurent realized that, as well as being physically spent, he was quivering with rage.

"You must take this, Aymar," he repeated.

The eyes blazed at him then.

"You are becoming a veritable old woman, de Courtomer!

There are times when one would really prefer to be allowed to lie down and perish in peace."

After which ungracious remark he took the brandy from the slightly stunned Laurent, drank it off impatiently, and, pulling himself completely on to the bed, subsided there.

Laurent went and looked out of the window, undeniably wounded, but telling himself that something extremely unpleasant had been taking place downstairs, and that a man on the border-line of endurance will sometimes strike out at the very person he would least desire to hurt, if that person be on the spot.

Nor had he ever judged Aymar's to be a very patient nature.

He stole a look at him now, and saw that he was lying face downwards.

For the first time he realized what an affliction it must be never to have solitude in hours of strain.

But as he could not take himself off he tried to bury himself in a book.

It might have been ten minutes later, or twenty, that Aymar suddenly turned over and raised himself on an elbow.

"I want to ask your pardon for the way I spoke to you just now, Laurent," he said, in a voice not quite free from constraint.

"I hope you know that I did not mean it for an instant.

I was .

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annoyed .

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but not, God knows, with you."

The blood seemed to come back to Laurent's heart again.

"Of course I knew that you did not mean it," he replied cheerfully.

"I saw that you were .

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annoyed .

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And, longing to ask why, but not quite daring, he took refuge in a triviality.

"Convalescents are allowed to be irritable.

So, if it means that you are getting stronger, you are welcome to call me an old woman as much as you like."

Aymar struggled off the bed back to his sitting posture on the edge.

"Did I really say that?

I deserve to be----" He stopped abruptly, and a wave of red passed over his colourless face.

It became still more sombre; he shut his mouth tight, and dragging himself to his feet went over to the window, stood a moment looking out, and then let himself fall into the big chair there.

"Laurent," he said presently, "as an excuse for my rudeness and ingratitude I will tell you why they had me down."

But there was struggle in his voice, and with one hand he was twisting a tassel of the chair.

"It was the same thing over again.

Colonel Guitton asked me what I meant to do henceforward, since I could hope for no mercy from my own side.

He was therefore kind enough to promise me a commission with his."

And, as Laurent made an angry exclamation, he went on, "But that is nothing new.

Have you forgotten his visit here that day?

Only this time it was much more public"--he caught his breath for a second--"and this time he did not, I think, really expect me to accept.

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Then they went through my few papers at great length, and questioned me about them.

That's all.

Don't ask me any more about it."

He put his head back in the chair; his arms fell to his sides.

Laurent, kneeling by him, carried away on far too deep a tide of anger and pity to remember his own recent repulse, began to chafe the cold hands, cursing under his breath the man who had devised so public an indignity.

For a moment Aymar roused himself.

"Coals of fire," he said, looking at him with a world of expression in his tragic eyes.

"Yes, as Guitton announced just now, shooting _is_ too good for me!"

(8) They were nearer to each other that evening than they had ever been before.

Afterwards, Laurent thought that had Aymar not been so spent in body and so quivering in soul he would probably have told him his secret.

As it was, he lay silent on his bed and watched the sky through the window, and Laurent watched him, and had a kind of happiness from it.

But at the same time he was deeply uneasy.

What would that devil do next, now that he was back?

He had not waited long to strike.

But, short of imprisoning them in different rooms--a most distasteful possibility--the young man did not see what he could do.

It was about two o'clock next afternoon, a little before the time when Laurent usually took his walk on the terrace, that steps outside the door roused him from the book he was reading.

"My escort," he said with a yawn.

"The fellows are early."

But there entered instead--Colonel Guitton.

Laurent's heart descended to his boots.

Aymar immediately pulled himself out of his chair, and stood looking out of the window.

"Good afternoon, Monsieur de Courtomer," said the Bonapartist, taking on his side no notice of L'Oiseleur.

"A pleasant day, is it not?"

He came forward into the room, limping a little, as Laurent was delighted to see.

"You have not yet gone out for your constitutional, then?

It was really à propos of that that I came--to suggest that you should, if you wished, have liberty to extend it."

"You are very kind, Monsieur le Colonel," murmured Laurent, taken aback.

"In fact, I have been reflecting that it would perhaps be more agreeable for you to become a prisoner on parole altogether now."

"But why should I suddenly become a prisoner on parole?"

"Because," responded the Colonel, showing his teeth in his false smile, "you will henceforward be alone in captivity, and, as an alleviation, I thought----" "Alone!"

exclaimed Laurent, glancing at the figure against the window.

He _did_ mean to separate them, then!

"Yes," said the Imperialist.

"You are going to lose your patient to-day.

I am afraid that we cannot keep him any longer.

--Monsieur de la Rocheterie!"

Aymar was forced to turn round.

He wore an icy and disdainful face.

"Here, Monsieur," said the Colonel, advancing to the table, "are most of the papers and all the money and other effects found on you after .

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after your unfortunate experience in the Bois des Fauvettes.

We had the pleasure of going through the former together yesterday.

Here, in particular, is a letter which I am sure you will be very glad to recover.

There is now nothing to keep you longer from the fair writer--unless, of course, she has rather stricter views on honour than yours!"

And, with his eyes on him, he laid a purse, a leather case, and a stained letter on the table.

Aymar had not moved from the window.

But at the last words Laurent saw his hands shut themselves with a jerk.

After a very tense second he demanded curtly, "Why are you giving me back those things?"

"Because it is usual to return his effects to a liberated prisoner--and you are free, Monsieur de la Rocheterie."

"_Free!

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"Free!"

echoed Laurent, not believing his ears.

"You are surprised, Monsieur de Courtomer," enquired the Colonel suavely, turning to him.

"But of what advantage can it be to us to house, feed, and give medical attendance to this gentleman any longer?

After yesterday's interview we have no choice but to ask him to seek lodging elsewhere.

As it is highly improbable that he will find it among his own friends we do not run any risk in this step.

--I regret, Monsieur de la Rocheterie, that with these possessions I cannot return to you your sword.

You had, I fancy, already been deprived of it before your .

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accident."

And at that Aymar strode forward to the table.

"If you were only a gentleman I would call you out for that!"

he said, in a voice of intense and quiet fury; and he looked so dangerous that Laurent all but made a movement to intervene.

"Any gentleman would hold me absolved from accepting your challenge if you sent it," retorted the Bonapartist, undisturbed.

"I think you will realize that state of affairs when you are free, Monsieur le Vicomte!

--Be ready, please, to leave this room in a quarter of an hour."

In the stunned silence brought about by his last words he turned as if to go, then, apparently remembering something, swung round again, and, putting his hand into his pocket, took out a small object.

"'The reward of martial valour,' if I mistake not," he said drily, looking down at it and evidently reading off the phrase.

Then he lifted his eyes to his released prisoner, and, taking the little object from the palm of one hand, held it out dangling from the finger and thumb of the other.

Laurent then saw what it was--Aymar's Cross of St. Louis, held out to its owner in silence, but with a look and a smile which made a more hateful commentary than any words.

Colonel Guitton, who had come in person to announce his decree, intended that L'Oiseleur should be made to receive his dishonoured decoration from him in person; and that, in fact, was what did happen, for after a moment or two of waiting Aymar was obliged to advance and take the order from the outstretched hand.

And, having forced him to this, the Colonel turned away with a broadening of his contemptuous smile.

But Laurent managed to intercept him before he got to the door.

"Monsieur le Colonel," he protested, "you cannot do such an inhuman thing!

It is unheard of!

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de la Rocheterie is only just out of a sick-bed where he has lain, as you know, in danger of his life--he can hardly stand .

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he is not fit to travel.

It is little short of murder!"

The dragoon shrugged his shoulders.

"That is not my business, Monsieur de Courtomer.

We have returned him his money; it is open to him to procure further medical care.

I do not think, however," he added with a sneer, "that he will go to the nearest Royalist headquarters for it;

that might lead him to a beech tree again!

Anyhow, Monsieur le Comte, I am sorry to deprive you of his society, as you seem to like it.

So, if you care to give me your parole----" "I'll see you in hell first!"

cried Laurent, exploding.

And the force of his passion was such that he barely heard the Colonel, with a darkened and furious face, saying something, as he went out, about the place in which _he_ would shortly find himself.

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And Aymar?

Aymar had laid down the cross near his other little possessions, and with bowed head was supporting himself, close to the table, by the back of a chair.

As soon as he heard the door close he dropped into the chair, put his elbows on the table, and covered his face.

The next moment his hands slid, locked, from his face, and his head went down on his outstretched arms.

"Aymar," said Laurent in an almost awe-struck voice, "he cannot mean this--it's impossible!"

No answer--except that given by the objects lying on the table near the humiliated head.

The obscurest soldier would have been too valuable to the other side to release, but L'Oiseleur was henceforth worthless;

they could safely afford themselves the satisfaction of flinging him out.

And the realization of this had beaten him to his knees.

"It is impossible," repeated Laurent, but with less assurance.

"Did he--did he threaten this yesterday?"

The bronze head stirred, and then raised itself.

But Aymar's expression was dazed, and after staring at him a moment he dropped his face again on his arms.

A wave of fierce, indignant pity surged over Laurent.

Yes, that butcher and devil had knocked him out of time.

Mercifully he could not witness his achievement.

He knelt down and threw an arm across the bowed shoulders.

"Aymar," he said desperately, "let us think what is to be done.

There is not very long."

But Aymar said in a choked voice, "I wonder you can bring yourself to touch me."

As an answer to that Laurent put his arm closer about him.

"Do you think I pay a moment's heed to what that blackguard said?

I have your secret.

But, Aymar, the cost is too heavy!"

The locked hands twisted a moment.

"The cost--my God!

--the cost!"

said the voice brokenly.

Then L'Oiseleur lifted his head, his eyes fixed on the window.

"You still think that of me?

You will not think it much longer!"

"Am I so changeable?"